Let Me Adore You

Hi,

I don't know if you have visited my blog, or if you even know this exists. And its both a blessing and a curse that you haven't. I'd really want you to read this hoping that you'd realize I am writing about you. On the other hand, I'd rather you don't and won't ever read this because of what might happen should you realize this is about you. 

Yes, I am that conflicted. Pretty much everything that has to do with you conflicts me. Like what and how I feel about you now. And I think it's timely that Harry Styles just released his new song (and album btw) "Adore You"  because this song (like any other songs I am currently listening to now) is about you and what I feel right now. 

So with the help of Sir Harry's song (and a bottle of rum), let me break it down for you.

Walk in your rainbow paradise 

Strawberry lipstick state of mind 

I get so lost inside your eyes  

Would you believe it?

It's really hard to describe you without being too obvious; at least to those who prolly have an idea who I am talking about. Without going to the superficials, all I can say is that you're a complete package. At least for me. But what really got me is your mind, your confidence, how secure and confident you are with your sexuality, and your very dry humor. You get me, which is not always easy given how my mind works. It amazes me how we can just talk about the most absurd of things and we can keep it going until God knows how long. I've had some of the best conversations with you than most of my friends. To be honest, I was first arrested by your looks, but it's your mind that kept me in jail. And I am conflicted whether I want to be bailed or not.

You don't have to say you love me 

You don't have to say nothing 

You don't have to say you're mine

Going into this, I know and I have accepted the fact that we can never be together. And while I am fine with that, it has become a little too difficult these past few weeks. I don't know if I'm becoming too intense. Or what I feel about you is overwhelming my already overwhelmed self. Or because I've kept this for too long now that it wants to come out. But again, under no circumstance should you be made aware of what I feel (if it isn't obvious already). I'm okay with this, you don't have to do or say anything.

I'd walk through fire for you 

Just let me adore you 

Like it's the only thing I'll ever do

So just please let me do my thing. Let me love you from afar, like what I have been doing for the last 3 years. Let me cherish moments that might seem ordinary for you, but mean the world to me. Let me indulge in our 5-minute conversations like its the best thing in the world. Let me take care of you in my own little not obvious way (hopefully). I don't and I won't ask for anything in return, just let me adore you. It's the only thing I'll ever do.

Love,

Gene

PS.

Stream Harry Styles' new album because its fucking good! 

If you're wondering what I'm listening to right now. Or if you're not but I'm gonna share it anyway because it's my fucking blog, here is the list.

1. Simula Pa Nung Una (Sad Version) - Patch Quiwa

2. Lover - Taylor Swift

3. Malay Mo, Tayo - TJ Monterde,

4. 10,000 Emerald Pools - BORNS

5. Finally//beautiful stranger - Halsey (i fucking love this)

6. Adore You - Harry Fucking Styles

7. Stay Right Where You Are - Ingrid Michaelson

Ang sakit diba?

Cheers!