Defining Existence

I tried to feel 
if my heart is still beating
just to see if my existence is real
It gave a weak thud

Maybe its tired
Maybe its weak
Maybe its both
Or it could be worst

Funny, cause I feel nothing inside
I wonder if its still blood
that flows through my veins
Or just cold dead air
I dont know if I’m still alive
Or just a walking dead

Then I started asking
“What is the definition of alive?”

Is it merely living like everybody else
Or finding something deep?
How do you measure life?

Is it counting days?
Or the days that counts?

Is it the number of smiles
The number of laughs we made?
Or the number of people who laughed and smiled
Because of you?

Or the number of people who feels alive,
Just because of your existence